Learning to survive

For a little over 2 years now my great and wonderful provider, best friend and husband has been working in California, I have never been married to a man who makes sure that he does this for his wife and son so that he can have a roof over our heads and food and of course clothes. I miss him terribly and wish that he was home more often, But I have to look at the positive things about it.. I have learned to deal with a flat tire, change a light bulb and take the trash out.. all of those things that we "Expect" out of the men in our lives.
People often ask how do I do it? the summer before last I just about had a nervous break down do to it, so one day I remembered this news cast when I was living in Illinois and heard of this place called "Cabrini-Green" housing in Chicago. as I was watching this documentary about it, I hear of it being one of the most infamous places in the united states, as the News caster was interviewing an African American women with a baby on her hip and 4 other ones around her stating that she is doing her best to keep her children educated, off the streets from gangs and not selling or using drugs, this women of inspiration worked 3 jobs and tried to keep food on the table and a roof over their heads with no man in her life to help out... and yes I know that poverty is everywhere in the United States and it is a rough job to raise children, I am greatly saddened about how America has the commercials of "Feed the children" of all the 3rd world countries other than the United States.
As I read articles of the housing projects today and how they are changing the neighborhoods and getting rid of those apartments to try and better that area of Chicago. I will never complain about how I don't have my Husband home, I don't have this and how I don't have that. This great man in my life, is Mike.... he has taught me to love again, he has helped me get reunified with my own children and he has never complained about having to work out of town. Mike in a way saved my life by telling me one day that I always said "if I had a place to get clean and sober I would" Mike offered that opportunity and I took it. for that I am forever in debt.